Dalam Mihrab Cinta

Salam annyeong~ :)

Ada yang dah nengok mubi ni? Jalan cerita dia simple jer. I like Ketika Cinta Bertasbih more... TAPI... satu bonus point untuk mubi ni.. OST dia best gedeboooshhh! Lyrics-wise, melody-wise and singer-wise.... yes- love love love AFGAN~!

Sungguh membuai rasa. Sedih ambe sesangat dengar lagu-lagu dia. Esp. the one yang tajuk 'Dalam Mihrab Cinta' by Afgan and the other one 'Bunga-Bunga Cinta' by Dude Harlino and Asmirandah.



demi cinta ku pergi
tinggalkanmu relakanmu
untuk cinta tak pernah

ku sesali saat ini
ku alami ku lewati
t
reff:
suatu saat ku kan kembali
sungguh sebelum aku mati
dalam mihrab cinta ku berdoa semoga

suatu hari kau kan mengerti
siapa yang paling mencintai
dalam mihrab cinta ku berdoa padaNya

karena cinta ku ikhlaskan
segalanya kepadanya
untuk cinta tak pernah
ku sesali saat ini
ku alami ku lewati

repeat reff [2x]

suatu saat ku kan kembali
sungguh sebelum aku mati
dalam mihrab cinta ku berdoa semoga

suatu hari kau kan mengerti
siapa yang paling mencintai
dalam mihrab cinta ku berdoa padaNya semoga semoga

xx

1195: The Other Half

Salam sejahtera sume :)

Blogging time. YAY! ^^

Tak tau camner nak start cerciter sebenarnya. Tapi ada keinginan nak update blog. Aiyoh! Ada bahan nak cerita pong - tapi ... laaa trus je direct to the point!

Okeh- nak borak tang definisi 'other half' ni sebenarnya. Tadi baru je selesai baca novel Hlovate 'Rooftop Rant' tu. I found definition of 'other half' there.

Ni definition nya:


Ambe letak lah definition tu as FB status ambe. So ada teman ambe yang reply. Dia kata, "Only when the other person thinks the same way i think!"

Hmm. Agaknya betul lah tu. Tu nak memberi makna tepuk sebelah tangan takkan berbunyi kan?

So- have I found my 'Other Half'?

Kalau ambe ikut first definition tu secara terus - YES, I HAVE.
But kalau ikut seperti yang HLOVATE tulis sebenarnya dan reply teman ambe tu - reality check. NO, I HAVEN'T FOUND MINE.

Say, real story.

Case #1

Remember Mr. Eyecandy tak? Si dia yang ambe cuba nak skodeng - yang sungguh tidak berunsurkan ke-Yamapi-an mahupun ke-JongHyun-an? hehehe the dude yang buat ambe lupa apa erti fangirl? YES- Allah sent him to me - to change my life to be a better one. I've always want to be that better one - going thru the right path tu. Tapi- ambe tak ada guide. Bila jer kenal si dia tu, rasa macam - he's the ONE.

Tapi as months passed by, I managed to belajar berjalan sendiri di jalan ini. The road that I want to go - jalan yang lurus kata kita-kita ;) Dan- ketetapan Tuhan, dia bukan untuk aku. Mula mengenal cermin - bila ambe tengok cermin, oh no. tak layak ambe untuk diri sama tinggi, duduk sama rendah dengan dia. moga Allah temukan dia dengan seseorang yang layak dengan dia :) sebab dia juga masih mencari. Banyak sangat faktor-faktornyeeeeeee....

Dan ambe, terus je mencari.

So funny, when baca balik post lelama - yang sangat serius ambe mengatakan - ambe berkeinginan nak kahwin dengan Mr. Eyecandy ni... hehehehe :)

So motif cerita - he's not my Other Half. Even though I found myself dah jadi lebih baik skang ni. Macam yang Hlovate kata kat dalam 'Rooftop Rant' - 'everyone has a skeleton in their own closet'. Ambe juga ada.

Apa-apapun, skang ni... kami dah jadi kawan dah. We are colleague now. Dah boleh bergurau senda dan beramah mesra dah. Alhamdulillah :)

Case #2:

Waktu-waktu ambe tengah berbelah bahagi memikirkan adakah Mr. Eyecandy ni untukku - dan tengah nak mengorak langkah untuk menyatakan rasa hati - lagi sekali, Allah hadirkan seseorang dalam hidup ambe. Adakah ini anugerah atau ianya hanya sekadar ujian?

Ingat dengan Mr. Canada dok? Rasanya tak banyak sangat ambe cerita tang si dia nih. Hehehe. Ada jer ambe blog tang dia bulan Juli lepas - tajuk pos, "Main-Main Cinta". Belum lama kan? Kenal dengan dia hujung bulan Juni.

Kali ni, ambe minta pertolongan Allah sebenar-benarnya. Semuanya ambe sandarkan pada Yang Lebih Mengetahui. Istikharah ambe lakukan. Mimpi tak juga dapat-dapatnya. Cuma hati ambe rasa terarah dan jalan untuk mengenali Mr. Canada ni somehow dipermudahkan. Entah betul, atau tidak rasa ini - wallahualam. Dah harapnya betul lah ye. Petunjuk Allah is the best kan?

Walaubagaimanapun, dipendekkan cerita - skang ni.. kita tak lebih dari teman biasa (though I hope one day, kita boleh move to that next level - when both of us are ready!!) Jawapan artis tue! So- semakin lah ambe tertanya dengan Tuhan, apa sebenarnya yang dia cuba rancangkan untuk ambe? Kalau betul, dia nak rancangkan perjodohan, Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. Sebab ambe sudah lelah sedikit untuk mencari dan melawan hati apabila hampa terasa. Dan tak ingin terlambat lagi... ='(

Why he could be my OTHER HALF? Because- sejak mengenali dia, banyak benda yang telah ambe pelajari. I am more knowledgeable now. I can cook Indian food now- (haha..sebab dia suka makan Tandoori Chicken and Nasi Briyani - tho dia belum try lagi!). Ambe ada tahu sikit-sikit skang ni pasal autonomi kereta. And-- made new friend because of him. Dia masih tak tahu tentang ini. Hehehe. Ambe dah kamceng Oh! Oh! Oh! dengan adik dia. Kihkihkih. Dan somehow, ambe jadi semakin kuat - feel more motivated to work. Pokoknya sekarang, I HAVE FRIEND TO TURN TO - kerja kat MOH tu. Who only a stone throw away~

Yang ni- dia taklah sealim Mr. Eyecandy. Tapi he is very genius. Very knowledgeable tang agama. Tak dipertikaikan. Cuma instead of going to that jalan lurus yang nyata depan matanya, he chose to go the jalan yang tak ada bengkok-bengkok sikit. Believe me, adalah juga orang yang macam ini seperti ini :) So- I keep doa untuk dia - moga satu hari nanti Allah bukakan pintu hatinya untuk menuju ke jalan sebenar - because ambe tahu kami berdua masih belajar untuk merangkak. Ambe nak sama-sama dengan dia somehow to go that jalan lurus. Biarlah jalan kami seiring...

Skang ni..ambe tengah doa dan usaha lah ni untuk tarik perhatian si dia nih. Ecewah. Dia pernah terluka ... so kalau boleh biarlah ambe yang jadi tukang rawat hati dia tu - and ....

Mr. Canada, thank you for being there. Can I be the last for you, pweeaseeee?

p/s: Dah banyak kali dah ambe bagi klu-klu, hint-hint kat si dia yang satu nih..tapi satu pon tak jalan. And I am still doing my Istikharah. Esok-esok, kalau tak get juga atau sangat-sangat buat tak tahu- ambe hantar rombongan meminang jer lah. woootsss! terobeeeerrrrrrrrr! [[ITU SATU PERKARA YANG TAKKAN TERJADI!]]

CASE #3:

Yamapi is my other half! LOL xD Sebab he has been motivating for these past few years for me to move with my life - with his words. and his determination.


Okeh tu je. nak share. tak tau lagi apa nak cerita. Doa-doakan saja lah ye.. may I found my other half soon :) Amin Amin!

Tata Titi Tutu~

1193: Listen To My Heart

Waiting for this to happen to me :)
Keep bersyukur-ing and berdoa moga Allah bukakan pintu hatinya suatu hari nanti.
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin~



Boy: I need someone to talk to.
Girl: I'm always here for you.
Boy: I know.
Girl: What's wrong?
Boy: I like her so much.
Girl: Talk to her.
Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
Girl: Don't say that...you're amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won't like me.
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell her...
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say?
Girl: Tell her how much you like her.
Boy: I tell her daily.
Girl: What do you mean?
Boy: I'm always with her...I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem...but he'll never like me.
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh, some boy.
Boy: Oh, she won't like me either.
Girl: She does.
Boy: How do you know?
Girl: Because who wouldn't like you?
Boy: You.
Girl: You're wrong. I love you.
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.

1193: What Happen Actually After 'Happily Ever After'?

Annyeong :)

Korang mesti ingat kan... kalau storybooks Disney Princess yang kita baca waktu kecik dulu.. mesti ending dia macam ni kan, '...and they lived happily ever after'!

Tapi betul ker? Pernah ker korang terfikir apa terjadi selepas itu?

Dan- ini lah yang terjadi selepas itu....





Dijadikan AL-KISAH~~! :)

1192: Yamapi, awak masih suami saya ke?

Salam all!

Siapa rindu ambe angkat tangan? *ye..walau dah lama tak blogging, kepoyoness ambe bukan semakin berkurang, tapi semakin bertambah* alahai~

Ekceli takde benda sangat nak blogging.. ni cuma nak menyatakan suara hati yang berlagukan kekecewaan. So, ini soalan untuk buah hati pengarang jantung ambe yang nun berada jauh di Jepun, yang ambe sayang kepayang tinggal-tinggalkan..

Yamapi sayang, awak masih suami saya ke?

Kenapa tanya soalan macam tu? Mesti korang tertanya-tanyakan.. hehehe

Iyalahkan.. kitaorang lama dah tak berhubung. Diary dia pong ambe dah lama tinggalkan. Ada jer kat facebook. Tapi macam kurang sikit nak mencheck. So nak salahkan ambe ker ni?

Tapi dah ambe je yang buat inisiatif? Dia tak..... tak ker tak adil? (KLANK! Kenyataan PSIKO TAK SEDAR DIRI!)

Okay..sebelum ambe melalut.. mari kita teruskan.

Ini luahan hati ambe.

*****

My dearest Yamapi,
You will always be the dearest of all in my heart among all celebrities. I will always sayang you walaupun I didn't manage to keep in touch with your career. Your keputusan to go solo - tho, that's a bit mengecewakan - but I respect that. That has always been your dream. I know it has always been your dream ever since your best friend forever, Akanishi managed to break the US market and did a tour there (tho- he did not sucess much! -__-"). So seeing that, I still did not know why you chose to follow that path. But then again, I know how much you've always been a competitor - so I guess you want to prove it. If Aka-nii can't do it, at least - you can do it. I, will always, support you. But frankly speaking, I've told people many times about this - you can't sing well. You are well in NEWS. Still- I'm here. Still supporting you. So, I don't have to say a lot of things - wherever you go, whatever you do my dear Yamapi, I will always support you. Unless, you did something yang very very very wrong and inhumane - yang itu langsung tiada maaf bagi mu, my shayaaang!

So for now, do not disappoint me baby:) All the best of the best!

And- I still sayang you, you know that right? xx

Millions of love,
Shee Tomohisa xx

p/s: Yes, I still decide to keep you as my hubby :) You are one in a million!

.heart.heart.heart.♥.heart.heart.heart.

1191: Salam Aidilfitri

Cantik banner kat atas ni kan?
Ambe suka. Very is the unique.
Bila ambe google image terus je keluar ni.... dan hati pun terus terpaut.

Anyway, di kesempatan ini, menerusi blog ini... ambe ingin menyampaikan rasa seikhlas hati ambe pada sahabat handai dan rakan taulan ambe yang membaca blog ini... yang kenal ambe melalui blog ini..

Syukur ambe ke Hadrat Illahi akan ikatan silaturrahim yang terjalin ini..
Jika ada tersilap kata, terkasar bahasa sepanjang perkenalan kita..
Sepuluh jari ambe susun di hari mulia ini..
Ampun dan maaf jua ambe pinta...

Maaf sebab tak berapa nak meluangkan masa dalam belog membelog ini. Ambe terikat dengan keadaan sekeliling. Pada yang mendoakan kebahagiaan ambe sebagaimana yang ambe selalu pohonkan.. terima kasih banyak-banyak.

Tahun ni banyak sangat yang berlaku~ terlalu banyak yang berlaku. Perubahan yang ketara, penglibatan ambe dalam dunia realiti, aktiviti-aktiviti Hangulisation yang mula berkurangan.. kebahagiaan pun ada juga terukir - walau ada sedikit berulam hati dan jantung.. tetapi itulah lumrah kehidupan.

Harapnya ambe akan mendapat kebahagiaan yang lebih indah lagi di Ramadhan tahun hadapan mudah-mudahan.. and tentang si dia, doakan saja moga dicepatkan pintu hatinya terbuka kembali... Amin Ya Rabb.

Okayys people, enjoy your hari raya!
Dan berhati-hati di jalan raya!

Much Love,
Shee~ xx

1190: 100% Satisfaction!

At last!
Alhamdulillah!
Menjadi jugak benda ni.
Found the bestest, tastiest, awesomest choc chip cookies recipe ever!

Nak dijadikan sebuah kisah klasik...
It has been years I tried to make these choc chip cookies. Asal raya je, mesti cuba resipi cookies baru. Asal raya je, mesti klik-klik mouse google resipi cookies. Tapi bila buat, tak menjadi jugak. It didn't satisfy me.

Macam tahun lepas, ambe ada buat ni. Ya Allah! Rasanya tersangatlah manis - gigi pun jadi macam ngilu! So sweet! And the year before, it is too rapuh. Tak sukses langsung!

Tapi kali ni... ALHAMDULILLAH!
Dengan berbekalkan niat dan Lillahi Ta'ala~ serta kasih sayang yang begitu mendalam, akhirnya.. ketemu juga akhirnya dengan resipi paling best, adunan yang mengancam.. and woots! taste dia memang awesome. Alhamdulillah!

So- I would love to share the feeling of kenikmatan sebenar kekeke~ and here is the recipe.

Resipi diambil dari website Kak Rima of Bisousatoi. Thank you so much Kak Rima!

Bahan-bahannya:
250g salted butter,softened
200g light brown sugar (do make sure it is written LIGHT/SOFT brown sugar..not just a regular brown sugar)
1/4 tsp salt (optional)
1/2 tsp coffee oil (this is the one that gives the cookie its distinctive fragrance and makes prople wonder,hmm what is that? but they usually cannot tell what it is)
1 egg
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/4 cup oats,processed to bits in a chopper (pakai nestum pun boleh juga, macam Kak Rima!)
1/4 cup ground almonds
1/2 cup of your favourite nuts,chopped finely (optional)(i used whole hazelnut.. toasted)
1 pack of Nestle Tollhouse semi-sweet chocolate chips OR chocolate chunks (don't use cheap chocolate chips,the flavour is compromised)
300g self-raising flour (i used plain flour with 1/2tsp of baking powder)

Cara-caranya:

This is the most important step,at least 2 hours before,or the night before,beat the egg with the vanilla and the coffee oil to infuse or you can do this the night before,refrigerate it then bring it to room temperature before baking.

Preheat oven to 160C.

To the softened butter,beat in the sugar and the salt to combine. Beat in the egg and stir in the processed oats,ground almonds,optional chopped nuts and the chocolate chunks. Sift the flour and fold it in,this dough will not be too stiff but not too wet either.

For small cookies,place half-tsp of the dough,spaced slightly apart on the cookie sheet and bake for 9 to 10 minutes.

For large cookies, place rounded tbsp of the dough spaced apart on the cookie sheet and bake for 20 to 22 minutes.

Cool completely and let it sit overnight in an airtight container,this is for the flavour and fragrance to develop further.

Eat one freshly made and one the day after,there is a difference!

Ambe follow exactly resipi Kak Rima ni! Setuju sesangat bila dia kata kena pakai choc chip or choc chunks yang very high quality untuk buat biskut cenggini.

SELAMAT MENCUBA~! xx

1189: Captain America: The First Avenger

Tengok ni kat bioskop Selasa (9 Augustus) lepas!



Tengok ni dengan kenalan baru tak sejenis.
Sila buat-buat faham dengan statement berkenaan! tqvm :)

Nanti borak tang tu!
Yang penting, I truly enjoy that company ;)

Best citer ni.
Rating tak leh tinggi sangat - 7/10.
Worth jugak lah tiket wayang yang berharga BND4 per head.

Satu tang si Captain America yang ambe nak - no, not what makes him strong - but his will to be the strongest! Well, not really ... actually ambe nak shield bintang dia tu jer! Best pulak nengok shield kalis peluru dia yang ternyata kononnya dibuat daripada sejenis besi yang paling ringan di dunia.




Exist ke besi tu?
Kan ker tu iron shield?
Hehehe!

Boleh tangkis pelbagai benda. Boleh jugak jadi tudung periuk. Boleh buat pinggan makan juga. Serba boleh lah ambe rasa shield tu. Tu lah sebab ambe nak.

Anyway, sila watch lah movie ni - kalau nak something different. Ada jugak di-emphasize on looking for the right partner ;)

Looking forward for the next movie outing with that company.
Insya-Allah, we will be watching this:

1189: I want Takoyaki NOW!

Kon! Kon!

This is part of my dream that have yet to be realized. Going to Japan, it is! I opened my email this morning just to see I got a newsletter from Air Asia titled "Oishii Osaka". This is the very first promotion email that have a very catchy title - so I opened it and read it through.

And good graciousness, I gasped. I DID NOT KNOW THAT JAPAN HAVE SUCH THING AS

"OSAKA TAKOYAKI MUSEUM"!

I just cannot believe what I read.

So I googled it up.

And that place really exist.

OH-EM-GEE!

OH-EM-GEE!

I wanna go there right now!

That place probably my so-called heaven.

That place could be my sanctuary.

That place could be my dreamland.

*ketidakstabilan emosi*


The Entrance!
So kawaii~~~!



The Takoyaki!
Looks OISHII!
I waaannttttt!!!
*terkurang pahala puasa sedikit*


And the cooking utensils used to make Takoyaki!
Perhaps the ingredients too!
I WANTT!!

Image credits go to: Animetric's World

Don't I just wish I could get some holidays now?
So I could make these dream come true?

Fine- I'll catch up with the admin later to enquire about my gaji bulan!
*semangat berkobar tiba-tiba*

How can I concentrate now to do my work?

How?

How?

Those delicious, yummy, octopus balls gonna haunt my head~! woots! woots!

But for Iftar later, I'm going Korean!

1187: Office Alone

Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah satu acara yang konon-konon ambe handle lah sikit kan... was the secretariat for the sambutan of World Breastfeeding Week event this year. Being a secretariat, fosho, not an easy job. But alhamdulillah, I managed to uruskan everything. Segala-galanya dengan kehendak-Nya juga.

No wonderlah kan, kalau kat Malaysia - they have this secretariat week - for appreciation of the hardworking secretariat. Iyalah kan.. kat Mesia nun best.. siap ada artis jemputan lagi. Tu yang the best part tu. Tolong ye.. kalau I punya secretariat week - sila fikir-fikir nak order Yamapi kerrr CNBLUE kerrr tak pong Aaron Aziz kerrr Farid Kamil pun boleh jugeeee! *angan-angan di bulan Ramadan*

Okeh.. nak dijadikan cerita. Skang ni pukul 3 petang waktu setempat ya Tuan Puan! Sekiranya anda berada di Singapura ataupun Malaysia, sama jer waktu kita ye.. cuma waktu berbuka jer different sket.

And- ye, ambe masih kat ofis. Tapi ambe sorang je skang ni kat ofis. Semua warga-warga ofis yang lain dah pulang dah. Diaorang dah chow tadi pukul 2 petang.

Nak tau kenapa?

Sebab-

I am still being paid on a daily basis.

Pekerja bergaji hari.

So kat sini, pekerja bergaji hari - di waktu bulan Ramadan ini - hanya dibenarkan balik pada pukul 3.30 petang.

Yang lain-lain boleh chow pukul 2 petang.

So sepatutnya ambe mesti buat kerja. I still have another paper to buat. Ohgooshiness! Tapi memandangkan I am still tired due to post-event - so my brain dah macam ditutup pulak switch dia!

Am all sleepy now.

Ada sesiapa nak drive kan ambe balik tak?

ZzzzzZzzzzz

1186: Ramadhan Ya Karim

Assalam :)
It's that time of the year again - time of multiple thousands rewards!

This video should explain more!



Selamat Berpuasa yalls!
Semoga Ramadhan tahun ini akan membawa 1001 kerahmatan dan keberkatan buat kita semua~
Amin Ya Rabb!

Dan doa untuk diri ambe sendiri, semoga Ramadhan tahun ini akan memberi kan ketenangan buat hati ambe dan ambe akan diberi petunjuk sebenar sebenar petunjuk untuk membuat pilihan yang TERBAIK punya! Amin Ya Rabb!

xx

1185: My Dream Car!

Jom borak tentang kereta!

Hek eleh.. macam lah terer sangat nak borak tang keta.. takde maknanyer lah ho~ kalau satu manatang tang keta pun tak tau.

Tapi apa yang ambe tau.. i could tell which car is the sexy one, which car is the beautiful one~ and which car is the cute or gorgeous one! I can tell those.

Ohhh~ and- and- and-

I could tell you which car is yang hengsem sesangat hengsem! Hengsem tahap bila Jae Joong DBSK akan pakai kereta ini- akan tenggelam lah kehengseman Jae Joong~ miahahaha! OOPS! Ciannya ko Jae Joong.. sampai hati kekasih lama mu ini membandingkan kau dengan kereta ye~ sob sob sob.

Dan semenjak beberapa minggu lalu ni... ambe rasa hati ambe terpaut sesangat ngan satu kereta ni! Macam ada termimpi-mimpi sikit nak pakai kereta ini. Ambe jatuh hati! Dia sungguh sexy dan sungguh beautiful! Her eyes was super gorgeousness! Her shoes are awesome~ so bombastic lah this car for me~!


Lexus IS300!
Superb wahlaowey!
Anyone?? Huhuhu


2995cc!
That's almost 2x ganda kereta ambe skang!
Must be a pleasant drive if I were to have this car... smoooooothhh!

Ada jugak lah kemahuan nak beli kereta baru.
Tapi bila kemahuan di-versus dengan keperluan... keperluan menang!
Biarlah diri memendam impian~

Sebab setelah dicongak dicampur, bukan tak mampu... syukur Alhamdulillah rezeki Tuhan.. tapi... keperluan wins!

Harga dia BND66,050 ~ kalau dok silap harga bulanan boleh mencapai BND900+!
Woots! Makan pasir kotttt....

So ada yang bermurah hati nak belikan ke? Kui kui kui!

This is the least I could dream of! Ambe tak larat nak dream pasal Mercedes. Ada jugak dream sket pasal BMW. That BMW- banyak kereta dia tahap hengsemm ekceli! huhuhu so kalau kawen ngan Lexus- uihhhs! bagai pinang dibelah dua youuu!! Sama cantik, sama padan gituee~

So, what's your dream car?

1184: W for Wonderful

Alhamdulillah.. I started to see the wonderful side of life again. I don't want to say that I've been through a lot - because there are still people out there who have undergone harsher things than me. But to begin, building up my self-confidence and keeping it up is not easy. Then again, ada lagi yang di luar sana masih mengalami kesulitan. So, I should feel lucky and ucapkan Syukur Alhamdulillah Allah still give me the opportunity and putting up a smile on my face.

Especially like today, I felt highly spirited somehow. Went for a nutrition talk out-of-district. Off to Danau. T'was 1 hr 15 drive from my home - with a maximum of 140km/h (poof! if mama tahu, kuuuussss!) and a minimum of 80km/h. Yezza, it's that far. And a little bit pedalaman. Sekolah ni dekat Pantai tu yang bestnnya. Murid-murid pun tak ramai sangat. Alhamdulillah, talk went well :)

Then, around in the afternoon, went back to office. Was signing onto the attendance list at the reception, when ehermm... Mr. Eyecandy arrived to the office too. He tegur-ed me. And all well with me,"Shee, dari atas ke bawah hari ni, purple je~" - ya ha~ I was wearing a one-tone colour today, purple and along with me at that time is my purple telekung bag as I was supposed to go down to Surau after signing in. Terkejut gak masa dia tegur macam tu. Sejak dua menjak ni, dia macam cuba-cuba jer nak cakap-cakap dengan ambe :)) Alhamdulillah.

On another note, Mr. Canada will be leaving for China tomorrow. May dia berada dalam lindungan Allah selalu and come back safely in one piece. Amin~ (silent note: because I want to go out with him! Well, he promised to bring me out~~~! lalalala~~)

Then tonight, went out with two of my GFFs!
Doing some catch-ups. A LOT MAN, A LOT! From A to Z, alif to ya - we covered all. Alhamdulillah~

I just feel awesome today.

Thank You Allah for the love :)

xx

1183: Main-Main Cinta

Annyeong~

Pernah dengar lagu Kenapa Singgah Kalau Tak Masuk by Flava tak? Lagu tu OST untuk cerita Duyung lakonan Saiful Apek ngan Maya Karin? Mesti pernah dengar kan? Kalau u ols pernah dengar, bagus... kalau tak pernah dengar, sila dengar... kalau rasanya macam pernah dengar tapi ingat-ingat lupa, sila dengar kembali.

Aii..Shee~ apa cerita lagi dengan lagu yang beria-ia sangat nak suruh orang dengar ni? Okeh.. macam ini.. mari kita masuk dunia cinta Shee yang macam tiada penghujungnya ni.. (harapnya adalah penghujungnya ye.. Shee juga ingin bahagia macam kakak-kakak Shee, punya keluarga sendiri.. oh well, ingin rasanya nak menyahut syariat Nabi SAW sewaktu di dunia ini sebagai jaminan di akhirat nanti, insya-Allah). Itu impian Shee~

Bla..bla..bla.. mula rasa macam nak menulis novel lah pulak. Dengan rangkaian ayat tak leh blah langsung.

Anyway, pada yang sudi membaca blog ni.. yang rasa-rasanya tahu ambe memang ada terjatuh cinta dengan seseorang ni.. yang ambe panggil by Mr. Eyecandy..mesti korang tahu kan? Kalau ambe ada rasa cinta ambe teralih arah, u ols percaya ke dok? Tapi itulah masalahnya.. nak kata teralih arah tak jugak.. cuman semenjak dua menjak ni pintu hati tu ada diketuk (HA! Ni lah sebab kena dengar lagu Flava ni!)

Lemme call him Mr. Canada. Ye..ye..sebab dia pernah belajar kat Canada. No, no..definitely bukan Aiman Azlan (woots! woots!). Mr Canada ni ambe kenal dua minggu lepas kalau dok silap. Kami ditemukan atas urusan kerja sebenarnya. Both of us have were appointed as liaision officers for a visiting consultant. So... bila konsultan tu datang, kitorang berdua ni lah yang kena ke hulu ke hilir bersama agar si konsultan ni dilayan dengan baik dan sempurna nyeee.. ecewah! Okeh skang masalahnya bukan ambe nak cerita pasal si konsultan ni. Tapi pasal si Mr Canada ni. Dia ni baik lah sesangat. Dia friendly sesangat. Dia macam.. argh.. ambe pun tak tau macam mana nak define dia ni. Macam dalam setiap percakapannya sewaktu bersama ambe, ada jer dia nak korek tentang diri ambe. Ambe terasa tentang tu tau! And urmm.. ada lah sekali, dua kali, tiga kali.. kitaorang dah keluar makan together-together. Apa yang ambe rasa lah .. tu pun kalau rasa ambe ni betul.. waktu kitaorang togeder-geder tu.. ambe rasa memang dia nak kenal dengan ambe lebih lanjut lagi.

Tapi skang ni... yang buat ambe macam berbelah bagi sikit.. bila ambe mula open jalan nak bagi dia kenal sangat ngan ambe, dia mula menjauh. Hairan lah ambe~ ker memang lelaki yang gentleman macam tu... kenapa nak main-main hati ambe ni. Ada macam terbagi harapan sedikit dia kat situ. Thank goodness, ambe tak terfall ngan dia. Iyelah kan..dah dia ketuk pintu hati ambe selow-selow, so ambe nak buka lah pintu tu selow-selow.. tapi dia macam singgah jer, tak nak masuk... :(

Okies.. kalau dia tak nak masuk takpe.. tapi I want to keep him as my friend. Macam mana eh nak keep the ball rolling?

Kami kerja tak satu ofis. Dia kat pejabat besar. Berjumpa pun jarang sekali. Memandangkan sekarang urusan kerja kitaorang dah selesai, so keberangkali untuk berjumpa sangatlah tipis. Honestly speaking, I enjoyed having him as a company sepanjang 3 hari itu.. serious. Sampai ambe mula lupa dengan Mr Eyecandy tu.. iyalah kan Mr Eyecandy pun tak pernah beri apa-apa harapan.. cuma ambe je yang syok sendiri nak membuai rasa sendiri. Sakit hati siapa susah? Ambe jugeeee... sigh.

So skang ni? Macam mana?

Ambe pun tak tau.

Yang ambe nak tau ni dugaan tuhan ker ni petunjuk tuhan sebenarnya? Nak duga sedalam mana sayang ambe kat Mr Eyecandy tu?? Ataupun nak bagi petunjuk yang Mr Eyecandy tu sebenarnya bukan untuk ambe? Tapi kalau Mr Eyecandy tu bukan untuk ambe.. datangnya Mr Canada mengetuk pintu hati ini kenapa pulak dia tak masuk?

Apa ye sebenarnya Tuhan cuba rencanakan untuk ambe? Allah, please... berilah petunjuk yang nyata sebenarnya. Tetapkan lah hati ku pada yang berhak. Jika salah satu dari mereka ini yang telah Engkau tetapkan untukku, dekatkanlah hati ku dengan hati nya. Amin~

1182: When Shee meet Instagr.am

ENJOY~~!!!
I love taking pictures, but I am at no near to professional. But I pat myself on the back if I managed to take it 'professionally' esp. with the help of such an awesome application, Instagr.am!
YAYYY :)

Random Snap:

The Grip of Darwisy Arsyad
i love this shot somehow! it has this nostalgic feeling :)

Quacky and his new bestfriend, Spongebob
My Office Table :)

Bila Hati Kata Sayang;
Took this today as of 2nd July 2011, during the National Public Health Symposium.
It was a booooooorrrrrringg one, so decided to buy a new novel and read it silently;
sambil menyelam minum air katanyeeers...

Delish Snap:

Fantasia De Maria;
Indeed my superb addiction! NYUMMMIESS!
Love~Love~Love~~!

Smile Supplier, Coke Zero;
Serve me this if offering me a carbonated drink, thank you :)

People Snap:

Nur Nadiah Batrisyia;
in her purple hijab :)

The Three Musnieces;
Lili, Syasya and Lila - my beloved

My adorable girlfriend, my beb's daughter - Rara~

Places Snap:

Jeti Hospital RIPAS, Brunei
The filter did it right. I love this pic! Looks professional much, hey? ;)

1181: He is not Yamapi!

Kon Kon!

Today, ada rasa-rasa sikit nak merindu. Sebab emosi ambe menerjah lagi untuk entah kesekian kalinya apabila terkenangkan si dia yang kini berada jauh entah di mana (semoga dia sentiasa dalam perlindungan Allah selalu, Amin). Tapi apalah dia tahu kan? Betul ke tu ada orang kata kalau kita asyik terkenangkan orang itu, pasti orang itu akan terkenangkan kita juga? Kalau betul, bahagianya ambe. Oops melalut! Tu lah kan.. so untuk melempiaskan sedikit emosi yang sedikit terganggu, ambe tetiba terkenangkan buah hati pengarang ambe yang lama menyepi (ker ambe yang menyepi dari dia sebenarnya? Iyalah kan.. dalam apa-apa perhubungan ..bila ianya terlalu lama.. there will always be a time when you need some times to breathe and have a break *referring to movie Sex and The City 2* ) ... so tu lah kan Yamapi and I somehow needs that little break somewhere. So we sure have it.. and kini ambe kembali merindu. Sila sila muntah merong!

Maka ambe pun pergi skodeng-skodeng lah untuk gambar dia yang terbaru!

Alamaaakkkk!

Terkejut Mak Limah ho~ ambe tengok gambar ni!



Tak suka lah ambe untuk gambar dia for Johnny's Shop yang terbaru! :(

Kirai dia.. kenapa dia buat kirai dia macam itu? *carik-carik bantal* NOOO!! He looks more Korean here.. he looks like SiWon Super Junior here.. somehow somewhere because of the kirai.. not liking it. This is not my Yamapi!

And he has gained a lot of weights.. look fluffier part pipi dia.. woahhh bahagia yeee cik abang sementara kita punya break ni... betul ke abang bahagia dengan ketiadaan baby di samping abang? betul ke? *dramatic mode on*

Ok stop here right there!

Oya~~~!

1180: Annyeong Annyeong

Assalam annyeong :))

Walla~ rindu nya nak blogging. Ambe diserang flu 3 hari ni. Tadi baru bawak jumpa doktor. Temperature badan katanya 39.7 degree Celcius. Sejuk banget! Kat opis lagi sejuk tak terkata. Menggigil seluruh badan. Tu yang cadang nak ambil off. Datang ofis pun sekejap je tadi... Pukul 9 pagi baru amik decision nak pergi klinik. Sebab ambe memang tak suka pergi klinik. Tapi takpe.. no wonder kuat hati ni hari nak pergi klinik..sebab doktor yang ambe jumpa.. hot lah pulaaakk! Naik terus temperature mendadak! jkjk. but serious, doktor tu hot. Tapi tu analisis yang dibuat berdasarkan sebalik face mask. Tak tau lah pulak di sebalik face mask itu ye. Rasa macam dalam novel lah pulak. Kekeke~! Takde maknanyeeee Shee~ keke

Now ambe sudah OK, Alhamdulillah. Cuma bodyache - rasa macam badan ni dicubit-cubit je kat belakang badan ambe ni.. :( Dok tau kenapa.

Okeh..lain-lain cerita, hmmm. KPOP? Sorry ambe tak hapdate! Ambe sendiri tengah berhempas pulas untuk menyelesaikan cerita Secret Garden.. adoi! JPOP? Yamapi? Idontknow. I have made my decision I ingin mendekatkan diri dengan si Dia Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang. Tu yang lain-lain tu macam terbengkalai je... tapi rindu nak berfangirling tu memang adalah jugak. Ada gak tertanya-tanya apa kabar ngan Yamapi ambe ye? Sihat ke dia? Iyalah kan.. hok dia sibok dengan tour..ambe dok nak kacau.. aigooo.

Anyway, korang ingat dok dengan my niece, Alyaa?
This is her little brother, my second nephew, Alvy.

Mohd Alvy Ashraaf, 3 bulan

Genetik bebeno lah nampaknya pipi sarat itewww!

And- this is my verrryy first nephew, Mohd Darwisy Arsyad :)


Bila beso nanti, sure diaorang ni boleh jadi kawan baik nyeeers! Grow up well ye, my princes! Moga jadi anak-anak yang soleh dan cerdik pandai pastinya. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin, itu doa Tua Achee!

Anyhoots, bercerita tentang si Dia :)

Dia dah tahu akan perasaan hati ini. Bukan ambe yang bagitau sendiri. Tapi bak kata pepatah, 'mulut tempayan boleh ditutup, mulut manusia bagaimana menutupnya?' I don't know if it's going to give a good impression or not. A bestie said, it would be hard. Fear of rejection is quite high since it's too early for him to know. That's a say from an experienced bestie. Ambe tak tahu.. betul-betul tak tahu. Allah sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui segalanya. Tapi ternyata cinta yang hadir tanpa disedari ini pastinya anugerah illahi. Special sangat~

Ambe tak akan tahu until he comes back. Skang ni dia tengah bercuti sepanjang-panjangnya selama hampir 2 bulan untuk mendalami ilmu katanya. Semoga Allah sentiasa melindungi dirinya dan memberkati segala usahanya, Amin. Sekembalinya nanti, pasti ambe dok tahu macam mana nak react sedangkan dia sudah mengetahui? Act cool? But how? I hope Allah will be there for me by that time. Ambe akui ianya kesalahan ambe kerana mudah mempercayai orang. And I learnt my mistake. From now on, is a NO NO~!

Mohon pada Allah moga diberikan kekuatan dan harapan agar ada berita baik ye, mudah-mudahan Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. Kita hanya mampu merancang, tapi Tuhan yang menentukan. Allah, please give me that strength. Ambe jua seperti wanita lain, ingin dikasihi dan ingin mengasihi. Hope this is the love story that will give the happy-ending, Amin Ya Rabbal Amin.

Okay tu je, blogging pun sebenarnya ingin meluahkan apa yang terpendam di hati ini. Rasanya tak habis sangat keluar.. tapi bila rasa sudah berbaur~ pastinya aku akan bermain dengan emosi.

Rinduuuu nak menulis!


Wassalam.

Much Love. xx

1179: Never Ever

1178: Aku Minta Izin, Ya Allah...

Aku sudah jatuh cinta.. dan cinta ini membuatkan cintaku pada-Mu semakin hari semakin bertambah. Semakin dalam kasihku padanya, semakin bertambah sayangku pada mu Ya-Rabbi. Andai cinta ini yang terbaik bagiku untuk dunia ku dan akhirat-ku sesungguhnya Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui, aku meminta izin dari-Mu ya Allah agar Kau redhakan perasaan ini, pertemukanlah kami, engkau jadikan lah dia untukku dan satukan lah hati ku dengan hatinya, aku mohon kebaikan dari mu Ya Allah... Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Then, I found this thoughtful doa.
Got it from putrihanan.

Allahu Rabbi aku minta izin
Bila suatu saat aku jatuh cinta
Jangan biarkan cinta untuk-Mu berkurang
Hingga membuat lalai akan adanya Engkau

Allahu Rabbi Aku punya pinta
Bila suatu saat aku jatuh cinta
Penuhilah hatiku dengan bilangan cinta-Mu
yang tak terbatas
Biar rasaku pada-Mu tetap utuh

Allahu Rabbi
Izinkanlah bila suatu saat aku jatuh cinta
Pilihkan untukku seseorang yang hatinya
penuh dengan kasih-Mu
dan membuatku semakin mengagumi-Mu

Allahu Rabbi
Bila suatu saat aku jatuh hati
Pertemukanlah kami
Berilah kami kesempatan untuk lebih mendekati
cinta-Mu

Allahu Rabbi
Pintaku terakhir adalah seandainya kujatuh hati
Jangan pernah Kau palingkan wajah-Mu dariku
Anugerahkanlah aku cinta-Mu...
Cinta yang tak pernah pupus oleh waktu...Amin


Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin :)

1177: Falling For You

At the moment, this is what I feels.
Eaxctly as the song portrays.
When will you ever understand?

I don't know, but I think I may be fallin' for you
Droppin' so quickly, maybe I should keep this to myself
Wait until I know you better

I am tryin' not to tell you, but I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'
But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life, and now I found you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standin' here, and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you, and we start to dance
All around us, I see nobody
Here in silence, it's just you and me

I am tryin' not to tell you, but I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'
But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life, and now I found you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh, I just can't take it, my heart is racin'
Emotions keep spinnin' out

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life, and now I found you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you, I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinkin' 'bout it, I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it, I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinkin' 'bout it, I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it, I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you, oh, oh, oh, no, no, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, I'm fallin' for you

1176: Holika Holika

Salam annyeong seantero dunia :)

Sayang, daijoubu desu ka?

Apalah kabarin dunia fandom skang yek? Apalah kabo Yamapi skang ye? Lama bebeno dok dengo cers dari dia. Harapnya dia baik-baik saja..sebaik-baik ambe kat sini. Ye, ambe masih sayang pada dia pong, dok kurang dok lebih :)

Maafkan ambe sebab dah lama dok jengah blog-blog member Ottoke.. tinggalkan jejak, tinggalkan kesan kasih kat sinun. Ukhwah kita masih terjalin kan? Harapnya begitu lah ye.. mohon pada Tuhan agar ambe diberikan kesempatan untuk bertemu dengan semua, Amin Ya Rabb!

Cers tang benda-benda Korea ni.. lama bebeno ambe tak update. Konfem! Ni bukan lagi ketinggalan kereta api.. ambe dah ketinggalan roket dah ni! Orang dah naik ke bulan dah pong..aigooo.

Cuma ada berita gembira gak tang fandom nih dua tiga hari lalu.. kalau dok silap masa hari Jumaat... kedai kosmetik yang bebudak CNBLUE endorsed tu.. Holika Holika will be opening soon kat Times Square, Brunei. Benda ni tak akan ambe ketahui jika bebudak kat kelas dok kecoh tang poster diaorang yang diletakkan dekat pusing keliling di Lapangan Terbang Berakas. Aigooo.. sebaik je ambe dengar tang tu..ambe terus je ajak bebudak tu pergi ke tempat tu untuk memastikan kesahihan berita tersebut. Sanggup je ambe hantar bebudak dua orang itu pulang ke rumah masing-masing, nasib baik lah satu jalan je.. maunya kalau bebudak itu tinggal kat Tutong atau Belait, haru ambe.. hehehe then bila je nengok poster berkenaan.. Ya Allah~ keterujaness ambe dok dapat dicontrol sangat.. feeling tu rasa sebu je.

So kompem! Holika Holika will be in Brunei! COMING SOON! YAY MAN!
Harap bebudak tu datang lah .. untuk opening ceremony kedai ni.
*in my dream, man..in my dream*
Need to grab some posters if available.. harapnya adalah ye.. :))
Tapi yang sedihnya.. bila kedai ni nak buka dok ambe tau lah ye.. LOL xD
Fail fangirl fail.. I don't think I'm a fangirl anymore. Sob!

And-

I only want him, no other. Someone just have to replace Yamapi in my heart..for real. And I shall not trade him for Jong Hyun even.

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah jodoh ku dengannya jika ada.
Bukakan pintu hatinya untukku dan tetapkan lah hatinya untuk ku.
Tolong lah Ya Allah.. Amin.
Doakan people, please doakan.
Semoga takdirnya menetapkan untuk diriku berada di sisinya. Amin. Amin.
Lihub-bullah~

xx

1175: Dream Destination

Assalammualaikum all :)

Apa khabar semua? Semoga semua dalam lindungan Allah selalu. Amin.

It has been a while kan.. kan? Ambe busy kot? Eh? Betul ke busy ni? Ye.. betul ambe busy this month. Alhamdulillah, satu big event telah sempurna dijalankan - Majlis Pelancaran Blueprint Promosi Kesihatan. Blueprint ini adalah asas bagi rangka strategik Negara Brunei Darussalam dalam mempromosi kesihatan in 5 years ni. Moga-moga rangka-rangka ini akan dapat dilaksanakan ye dengan jayanya. Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. Our Ministry of Health's vision, "Bersama Ke Arah Warga Sihat". Itu yang ingin kami capai. Ecewah.. semangat berkobar-kobar lah pulak ambe ni.

Anyhoots, macam lari lah pulak topik ambe ni ye. Okies.. sebenarnya ambe nak cerita ceriti pasang angan pasang impian tentang Dream Destination ambe. Semenjak dua menjak ni, ambe cuba untuk merapati dan mendekatkan diri dengan-Nya Yang Maha Esa. Alhamdulillah, ambe diberi peluang itu awal - i am still learning i have to say. Yelah.. dulu nakal sikit.. keke so benda-benda fangirl skang ni.. ambe kureeeng lah pulaaak. but tak lah pula ambe rasa sedih. Don't ask me for updates - i no longer been updated. Paling-paling pun ambe try my best to keep it best to Yamapi and CNBLUE. Two jeee.. yang lain-lain.. hmmm.

So dulu-dulu tu kan.. sebelum ambe kerja, ambe ada pasang angan-angan. First cuti ambe nak amik selepas setahun bekerja or bila-bila nak diberi cuti.. ambe nak pergi outing. Konon nak pergi Korea, nak pergi Jepun lah. Those are the two destinations that I really want to go. Tapi semenjak dua menjak ni... rasa ingin tukar dream destination itu.

I put my heart I want to earn enough to go here.

I really, really want to go here. Tanah yang suci.
Jeles gak pada mereka yang sudah menjejakkan kaki ke tanah suci ini.
Bertuah sungguh mereka - apalagi mereka yang seusia ambe - sudah pergi ke sana.. woahh!

Ambe memohon agar diberi peluang oleh-Nya agar satu hari nanti ambe boleh menjejakkan kaki ke sini. especially sewaktu ambe masih kuat dan kudrat masih ada ini. Ambe nak pergi ke sana dengan insan-insan yang ambe sayangi.. mama dan bapa .. dan mungkin juga si dia? Jika si dia yang ditakdirkan oleh Allah buat ambe (Amin~ itulah yang ambe harapkan ketentuan dan ketetapan dari-Nya), si dia pernah menjejakkan kaki ke sana - dan si dia boleh menjadi mutawif persendirian kami. Itu yang ambe harapkan, itu yang ambe angankan. Semoga hasrat dan impian ambe ini tercapai. Doakan ye kawan-kawan Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Sungguh indah pemandangan Masjid Nabawi ini :)

Kalau pun tiada dia, ambe masih ingin membawa kedua ibu dan bapa ambe... itu impian ambe. Sekurang-kurangnya membawa mereka pergi Umrah at the least. Ambe mau kumpul duit.. mau pergi ke sana dengan mereka. Kuat hati~ Ya Allah, mohon dipermudahkan segala urusan.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..engkau ampunilah segala dosa-dosaku..
Permudahkanlah segala urusanku agar mampu aku bertemu Mu dan bertemu dengan kekasih kesayangan-Mu dan merasai nikmat dan keagungan berada di tanah suci..
Sesungguhnya engkaulah yang maha mengetahui,maha pemurah dan maha mengasihani..
Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin ...

1174: Mahu Tapi ......

Macam mana ye?
Ambe suka dia.. suka sesangat. Tapi rasanya sekarang ambe tersepit. Ingin meluahkan tapi malu. Ingin meluahkan tapi takut. Takut kerana apa.. kerana malu. Takut bukan kerana apa.. tapi takut di-reject.

Ini yang ambe dapat per discussion with a guy friend.

He said, "you..Shee..can go ahead with your feelings. make your move now. but i tell you. this is going to be hard for you. it won't be as easy as you think. if he say Yes, i'd be very very happy for you.. we will be very happy for you.. but if it's sebaliknya, this is where you need to get ready and prepare yourself beforehand... because when it happens..things will be very awkward memandangkan you and him are in one office"

Bila ambe fikirkan?
Ha'ah kaan.. it'd be awkward. Because ambe belum pun kenal sangat dengan dia ni... but I seriously want to marry him. Did I ever tell you that.. my impression on him was, "this is the guy I want to marry. I want to live my life with" I think I've mentioned it before.. and I'm serious about it.

This is a matter of by hook or by crook. I just don't want to destroy my friendship and the working colleague-ship with him, if it ever exists, sedikit-sedikit lah.. if I ever tell him one day about my feelings for him.

But still I need to make a move kan.... and these people who have been advising me pun kata.. i need to make a move to approach him. and get to know him...

Do you people have any say in this?

1173: Kenapa Aku Menangis?

Annyeong~!
Phew, what a title u may wonder.

Ni lah nak story sket ni.. kekeke ambe pon tertanya-tanya gak kenapa ambe menangis? Okeh.. ceta sket lah ye.. ada pada satu hari di minggu lepas tu kan.. waktu nak balik dari kerja... dalam kereta tu jugak ambe rasa sedih sangat. Yang ambe tau, I got overwhelmed by my feelings for Mr. Eyecandy sebenarnyeee... our cars parked opposite.. so masa ambe dalam kereta tu.. he was right infront of me.. i mean kat kereta dia lah kan... and bila ambe tengok dia macam ambe terus rasa heavy with my feelings...

Ambe tertanya-tanya.. kenapa macam ada wall je between me and him? Kenapa ambe tak leh bertegur sapa dengan dia seperti ambe bertegur sapa dengan rakan sekerja yang lain? Berbagai persoalan mula bermain di minda.. ambe tak nak sangka yang buruk-buruk.. but I can't help but to think... something like, 'dia tak suka ambe ke?', 'tapi apa yang buat dia tak suka ambe?' ...sebab so far ambe je yang dia tak tegur... :'(

But at another thoughts, I pun tak cuba tegur dia... tapi masalahnya.. kalau dia dah buat muka macam tu... ambe pun rasa takut nak tegur dia.. macam ada unapproachable feelings je... walau ambe suka tengok dia sangat-sangat dari kejauhan lah je kaaan...

Oh kenapa?

So on the way balik tu dalam kereta tu.. ada drama airmata lah.. memikirkan kenapa? kenapa? berbagai persoalan mengasak my head.. i is the don't know why.. tambahan lagi dengar lagu jiwang berkarat yang tengah main kat radio... alahaiiii~!

Ya Tuhan, I really like Mr. Eyecandy ni. Cuma ... I know I have to be proactive tegur dia. Dah dekat nak dua bulan dah kerja.. taklah takkan bertegur sapa lagi... those walls I need to break. Tapi ambe tertanya-tanya jugak... dia tak tertanya-tanya ke pada diri dia sendiri yang.. why I and him tak bercakap? It's just obvious you know yang tak berapa nak bertegur sapa kat ofis ni hanya kitaorang berdua je... me and other colleagues are all fine. and him and the other colleagues are all fine... haihhhs...

So what should I do now? Geram bebeno hati ambe.. the fact that we are not yet talking :( God, please help me...?

1172: Life at 4.30 am (Part 3)

Annyeonghaseyo!!!
Choneun Shee imnida.
Brunei saram imnida.
Pangapseumnida.
Kamsahamnida.

Miahahaha.. terlebih sudah! UPDATESSSSSS timeeeeee! So long... didn't update you know. Been busy... very busy taklah jugak. Tapi you know how my life started at 4.30 am kan? Pergi kerja awal, balik kerja akhir... pukul 7 pm ++++ baru sampai rumah... lepas tu... mandi, tunai kewajipan and sleeep... I don't want to say, I don't have that time. I do have that time.. a lot of them.. I just don't have that energy to spare!

And Jumaat dan Ahad skang ni.. I amik night classes! Kelas Bahasa Korea gitueeee! The class so far is verrryy fun! Hanging out with the kids - lol.. younger than me by 4 years and ada yang even younger.. ahaha and having them calling me 'kaka', 'unnie' and 'noona'. So funnyyy having them dependent on me somewhat to guide them on pronounciation - on one fact that, my Korean pronounciation is not that good! Good thing for me to unwind from the stress level at work though - I have something to look forward too :) They made my day.. ^^

Lain-lain hal, hal kerja wise.. I have been assigned to prepare some proposals here and there. It's piling now... oh so scarrrryy! I don't know where to start and how to start.. but insya-Allah I'll keep on track!

And- I've been balik akhir lately for using the gyms! I need to lose some weight yosh! Hahahaha! And urrrmmm... something nice happened today. Hahahaa! I shared gym with Mr. Eyecandy! But interaction was very limited. Or .. you can say... I don't talk to him! Fufufufufu~ I'm still looking for my ways to talk to him naturally without having my heart beats faster when being around him... ahahahahaha

And OHMYYYY!! ahahaha i've finished reading the novel that Hurul-chan recommended me.. Jaja & Din!!!!! Did I tell you that.. it is so not my alternative... and did I ever tell you that I've heard rumours about that namja yg I like... that dia nak perempuan pinang dia?? AHAHAHAHAHA and have I told you that.. the namja yang I like tu pun .. his name ends with 'din'? ahahahaha! Only the first part of his name je lain... ahahaha yg after tu... 6 huruf terakhir tu memang sama lah.. aigooooo... coincidence keeee??? Perlu ke ambe buat cerita 'Shee&Din'? Miahahahahahahaha! Shadaaaaapp Sheeeee! Shaddaaaaaaappppp!

Ok- I better stop now. I'll sambung the cerita tomorrow if I got the energy to write and got the access.. itewww yang pentttinggggggg :)))

Much Love,
Shee xx

1171: Life at 4.30 am (Part 2)

This should be the second part of ..... the life which begins at 4.30 am! LOL!

Tak tau pulak kalau relevan ke tak.. tapi rasanya ambe pasti it sure part of it. Dua tiga menjak ni... hati bagai terusik lah. Dah lama dah rasanya hati tak terusik ala debuk-debuk pelbagai... you know trang ku ting tang tak tentu rasa! miahahaha~ Alahai~ kalau korang paham, kan bagus. Bagus lahhhhhhh... tak payah expleng-expleng... terusik in a good way.

Tak yah cerita hati yang terusik in a not good way.. yang tu memang banyak. Yang ambe mampu buat, sabar lah sajakan.. sabar itu kan separuh dari iman :) *breathe and sabar* Tapi yang terusik in a good way tu cuma satu je, rasa-rasanya lah u ols faham lah... dan yes.. ambe harap u ols faham....kaaaaaaannn?


Dia tak lah sehengsem artis2 Korea pon. Jauh sekali.. tapi somehow this time, ambe lihat pada agamanya. Kalau lah boleh ingin sekali ku katakan, 'I wish that he's meant for me'... seriously. Tapi sebetulnya ambe belum layak untuk mengatakannya begitu. How can I judge it? By only looking at his tables which have books of Islamic references? Tafsir Al-Quran? That can be considered kan? His noble job, perhaps? Shall not say here. Jadi imam dan pembimbing? Can I say I see that in him... walaupun dia nampak nakal sikit? ARGH! Entahlah.

Tak leh cerita banyak-banyak.... lollll!

Pentingnya sekarang, nak berkenalan dengan dia ... ambe malu sangat. Bercakap di hadapan dia pun ambe sudah menjadi tidak tentu rasa.. inikan pula menegur si dia. Tapi anehnya bercakap dengan kawan-kawannya.. ambe OK jer!

Biarlah. Mungkin ini satu lagi mainan perasaan.
Dia banyak menyedarkan ambe.. kalau hati tengah marah tu, tengok dia.. tiba-tiba je ingat.. laaaah.. jangan dibawai sangat perasaan marah itu. Itu hasutan syaitan..terus je istighfar. Tengok dia, terus concern ngan waktu solat. Isn't that a good thing? I meant- for me to have a reminder like that?

Entahlah.

Baru masih ni.... satu bulan pun belum sampai lagi. So tak nak cakap lelebih lahhh!


Kalau ada jodoh, Alhamdulillah.
Kalau takde jodoh, takpe lah.. mungkin ada lagi yang lebih baik, walau ini adalah yang terbaik so far... dari segi agamanya lah i mean ;)

Iyelah kaaaan...
Kumbang pun bukan seekor!

Yamapi, Jong Hyun, Jung Shin, to list it all night loooooooonnnnngggg!!! rotflmao!!!!!!

1170: Life at 4.30 am (Part 1)

Salam annyeong yorobun~ ^^

Hohoho~ it sure has been a while, ne? Seperti sudah lupa bagaimana nak blogging. Nak type satu patah perkataan pun macam kena fikir juga... hohoho kalau dulu.. alahai.. letak je jari kat keyboard, terus je jari jemari tu berjalan automatik. Zup! Zup! Laju macam kereta api yang Kajol naiki sampaikan Shah Rukh Khan pun tak terkejar dek kaki dia yang bermuscle-muscle itu. Tsk~

HA! Kan... dah start merapu. I still remember how to merapu - that should make the core of my blogging sesh. Hehehe! Anyway, ni nak khabar satu berita gembira...

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Illahi, my doa and doa semua telah dimakbulkan Tuhan jua.. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.. I am now a WORKING LADY!! Kalau nak glams lagi sikit, ambe sekarang adalah WANITA BEKERJAYA! Hmmmm~ glams lahhh perkataan Melayu nih! Yes, Alhamdulillah. Yesterday, I reported officially to my working place. I am trying to get used to the place as per before I reported actually - I went for a week attachment.

Jawatan yang ambe pegang sekarang ialah.. I am the NEW Health Education Officer-cum-nutritionist. Yada~yada~ emphasize please on the word NEW. Because everything is so NEW here! NEW surrounding. I've been observing a lot of things jua. Do pray for my well-being and I could get through. If ada sesiapa nak bagi advice of living a new life like this, living in the working environment, coping with this new, stress-to-be environment for me... please, your advices are kindly and highly appreciated. Ada sebab Allah give me this job... one, because I ask for it. Two, because he wants me to be more patience. Three, Four, Five... dan banyak lagi.

So sekarang ni.. dah tak boleh bangun akhir dah. Boohoo. My life has totally changed! My 11 am life for the past few months dah bertukar jadi kehidupan yang baru seawal 4.30 pagi. Woohoo! YES- Kena bangun 4.30 pagi! Dan bertolak dari rumah sewal 5.30 pagi! Sebab... sebab... my rumah is very far... and in the middle of the journey, traffic jam is heavy giles! Lambat je 5 minit.... like bertolak around 5.45 pagi around like that.. confirmmmmmmmm! Datang pejabat pukul 8.15 pagi! Giles... and working hours start at 7.45 pagi! Mampos!!! So I rather wait ooooooo~~~!!!

So I arrived at Bandar pun around 6.30 am.. and settled kat my dad's place sekejap.. browsing Internet... like what I'm doing now... hohoho~~! And bertolak around 7am! It's 7.05 am... nanti lagi sambung borak okaaayyyyy!

Seeeeeeyouuuuuus!

1169: Soon....

Will share a good news soon, insya-Allah :)
Just pray for all things that need to be sorted out going well.. Amin.

Hint:
Can't go outside of Brunei for one year unless with a strong reason.

1168: ONE YEAR....

The date today was the date last year... the hype on CNBLUE reached its critical maximum level, which caused me to go wandering around the net looking for something to fill in my addiction. And I found this site called CNBLUE-SKY.

I was amused(?), if that's the right word for it - when I saw the date this site was established. It was found on the 22 September 2008. Wow! It sure has been a while... seriously. Less did I know the guys have been around for so long. Back at those days, I was at no place to familiarise myself with the agency of the artists, bla-bla, etc.

CNBLUE-SKY is definitely the friendliest site I've ever been in! And it is one of the site I am most active with. All things there were keep sane~ I shall say most who I've met there.. are the sane, rationale fangirls! Miahahaha, I meant it yo! Despite all the sweet fuzzy cusses for the boys... ahahaha! And we can be crazy at most times! LOLLLLL but it's a different kind of crazy... hahahaha!

If I shall mentioned some names~ life as a CNBLUE fangirl has been great with these top girls of CNBLUE-SKY: D, P, C, Ankie, Sarah, Kelly, Pam-unnie, Emily, Ysa, Linda and Chan... so much love for all of you! and the rest who dropped by at the forum saying hi and saying bye~~ ♥

I learned a lot of new things as far as I've been there! One of the greatest lesson would be to be involved in photoshop! I thought never will I try to open that software - because of its complex nature lol.. but hey, from cool lessons made by Sarah ... i made it! LOLLL I remember how blur I was when Sarah did the live tutorial for me and P on the chatango!

I also did some collab! I don't know how to sing.. but I love to sing - despite of my flat voice... ahahaha but still ... through doing some collabs with the girls in the forum especially D, Ankie and Sarah - it helped me to boost my confidence level more!! Proof: I overcame my nervous-wreck miraculously during my Master presentation and did very well too. I think being open more to the people out there.. work it out. These for sure because of the girls!

We had our blond moments too! Or maybe I did... lol... I had my blond moments with the girls. At most times, they caught me in actions. hahahaha

Our endless convos about the boys especially, foods, movies... have always been awesome possum!

Being part of the BLOONAS FOREVER ♥ was one of the memorable moment too! Haaaa~!

Saw the drastic changes from getting obsessed with Jong Hyun's hands and leather jackets to being lovey dovey over the supercute Min Hyuk (and cussing over YongHwa's so-called moustache issue!!!!)

This will be one of the greatest production came from the BLOONAS mind! Do you remember this girls? We are very artistic like that!!!!! And very imaginative too~!!! The professionals cannot tolerate it to our excellent ideas - the reason why we are not recruited. HOHOHO~!

Sure a lot of things happened in ONE year with them, the CNBLUESKIERS!

ONE may sound so little... but talking about 365 days or ~8765 hours.. that sure is a lot, right! And being scattered around all over the world, the bonds were created! MAGIC, right? Hundred thousands of kilometres away~

I appreciate it girls! Hontto ni~! ♥

I shall convey my gratitude to CNBLUE too - not that they will read it... but yeah, thanks to all of you: YONG HWA, JONG HYUN, MIN HYUK & JUNG SHIN - for your existence and giving me chances to know your beaus in CNBLUE-SKY~! ♥♥

But those were the sweetest of time.. when I was still in Melbourne. I became less active after I came back home... tsk. The internet here sure is not great! But I feel so thankful.. that I have still the girls in my Twitter!

We missed C too - it sure has been a while not seeing her around~ hope she will be doing all well in whatever she's doing and wherever she are now :)))

And so this beautiful journey with the CNBLUE boys and the CNBLUESKIERS... will definitely continue yo~!

Once again, thanks for all the smiles and the laughs :))


From the bottom of my heart,
much love xoxo
S~

1167: Kera Sumbang

Abang Fazley Yaakob has always been my inspiration and will always be! Got advice from him... he replied my tweet to him! I will keep this in mind, and in heart.

"Be yourself and always hormat org yg lebih tua tak kira pangkat. Yg lebih senior jgn cuba tunjuk pandai, lebih elok jadi org yg mudah mesra drp org yg digelar kera sumbang :)"

Thank you so much Abang Fazley!
I wish to meet you one day.. so I convey my gratitude properly!
He was there once upon a time..at some turning points in my life... :)



And this I got from google-ing about Kera Sumbang.

"Jangan menjadi ‘kera sumbang’ dengan mementingkan diri sendiri sahaja. Tidak boleh ditegur dan tidak suka orang lain mendapat kelebihan. Dengan menganggap yang lain tidak betul padahal diri sendiri tidak pula setara mana. Mereka ini selayaknya tinggal di hutan atau di gua-gua sahaja jika dituruti kehendak hati ini."

Sebab ambe tak nak tinggal dalam hutan, sebab dalam hutan takde tenet..takde tenet, tak dapat nak tau update tang my honey bunches... so ambe tak akan jadi kera sumbang. Aigooo! Tak faham bahasa betul lah... tsk.

1166: Show Me Your Love

Hahaha! This will be the song of the day - i think. Since it will be on repeat at most times. Quite an old song to start a week! But it brings back all the sweet memories with the boys, especially with the lovely DBSK boys~ :s

D suggested for us to collab on this song! So, time for me to carve some memories with the girls at the forum - so I won't miss a chance. I'm IN for the collab! Regardless that I don't know this song very well but have heard of it before. LOL (note: I was not into this video back at those days.. because I hate to see so many people singing on one video. It made me all dizzy! Thus- I'm not into Super Junior... hohoho~)

But today is a different story. I started to like them, these many,many,boys of Super Junior. And I'm all a happy girl to find out that I was assigned to sing the part of my faves in Suju! Sungmin, Ryeowook and Donghae~ (eh, wait- I didn't notice if Kyu got a part in this song? Did he? Or was he not appealing much back those days? Hmmm....) lol!

So I'll learn this song today...
Learn my parts.
And try to be in sync with the rest!
(Note: I cannot sing well but I like to sing.. lol)

Taraaaa~!

1165: For First Time Lovers :)

14th January.
Today is the official release of the Banmal song, composed fully by our Yong~

And the most important thing of all-

♥♥♥ HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY DEAR CNBLUE~! ♥♥♥

I'm here to express my lovey dovey feelings for this very sweet song!

Three words: I LOVE IT~ ♥♥♥

Thanks to Kelly and Sarah of CNBSky for the awesome translation of this song, I am able to get deeper with this song.. and now it is on repeat. What Yong tried to say (to me!) through this song ... sure reached my heart...and I'm up on the sky now! *Cloud 9* lol xD

I don't know if my ear is in a good condition or not.. but I love his voice in this song so much! Maybe it's because this is my first time to listen to him doing solo properly- and I am not comparing his voice with the voice of his bandmate, my soul- Jong Hyun (who I believe is still a champ in singing a ballad song ...).

But this time... honestly, I'm being swayed for the song being sung by Yong Hwa himself... and I ignored all of his hateass personality to assess this... lol.

And another reason probably is because that this song... doesn't have his rap (ahahaha.. now that reminds me of D's cuss on Yong Hwa's rap)... hahaha !

Anyway, This is just about his voice and his song. I'm happy. I'm glad :)

Through various articles I read after this song was made, I believed that he really poured out his heart when writing the song - truly inspired and all by the sweet memories he have been experiencing in We Got Married. And that's what I feel to after listening to this song properly~ (don't I just wish to be able to do a telepathy and get into Yong's mind now? lol )

I didn't follow WGM anymore.
Since... ages. LOL.
So I don't know how the couple is progressing..
But seems like their friendship is going stronger, no?
And the memories have been carved so well~ :)

So sweeeeeeeetttt~~~ that I thought I'm going to die of diabetes... hoho~!

Image credit goes to gokpop.com

This song is another suitable song to be played at the beach infront of the campfire - serenading your night away after the sunset! Reminds me of SS501's song too titled Wandukong - the one they wrote for the Green Peas. Wouldn't it be so romantic?? *just this kind of thought made my heart flattered* ... Kim Hyun Joong's Thank You would be another one! OHMAIIGADDD!! *these thoughts are killing my brain* spending some nights at a beautiful beach (Jeju perhaps?) with the charming Yong Hwa (:p) and gorgeous Kim Hyun Joong (xD) and having them singing this song for me.. kyaaaaaaaa!!!! *ovary explodes*

(leaving Pi crying in the corner alone in his apartment!)

xoxo